Tired and tested

Originally published May 2007

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As another bout of depression hits, I realised that I am a little tired. Momentarily, I am suspending efforts to create a world that I can survive in.

Increasingly, we as the human race have become “local”. It’s surprising how easily people attach themselves to things, and believe in the values of those attachments. People from the same countries, communities, races. We are, as a people, drowned in characteristics. And familiarities. And someone like me is a freak in every context. Without exception.

I disagree with Kaushik that people resent outsiders. That may temporarily be an excuse. But more often it is a feeling of superiority. And that is as much the fault of the men who feel inferior.

I am an acknowledged agnostic. There are people who know God is around. There are people who know there is no God. To me the only problem is that if God were to step on the Earth, and tell everyone that all the religions have been lying to them; nobody would believe him.

I understand that there are not too many things left to do in life. Even lesser than before. I don’t know if that is a good sign.

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